White lies lead to red asses Pt. 2

I said the words more sternly than I had intended but I still enjoyed the effect of his wide eyes and immediate obedience.

He stripped down to his undies and stood before me hands neatly behind his back.

I looked down at the underwear disapprovingly over the rim of my glasses.

"You won't be needing those," I told him as I yanked them down around his ankles.

I had no patience for fancy rope work so I tied his hands together tightly leaving little wiggle room between the two and I secured him to the bench. He started to speak but I cut him off.

"The only words I want to hear tonight are sorry or the safeword. Understand?" I said.

"Yes Miss," was his quiet reply.

I tied the rope around his waist leaving a little bit of a lead so I could pull him around like a lost puppy. I directed him to the bondage table with the cage underneath and laid him down face up. I instructed him to close his eyes and he did as told.

I raked my nails across his legs and thighs watching his skin goosebump in the process. I did it again and again working my way up to his balls where I dug them in deeply causing him to let a small squeak escape. When he started to get hard I stopped and told him to open his eyes.

"All warmed up?" I asked.

"Yes Miss," he replied.

"Good, now follow me and get on that," I said pointing to the spanking bench.

"How do I get on there?" he asked quizzically.

I smirked at his newbie-ness but used his body as demonstration on how I wanted him to approach it. Once he was properly on the bench I grabbed a handful of his hair in a tight fist.

"I'm not going to go on easy on you," I said into his ear.

He gulped but didn't say a word.

I began biting his back and attacking his arms fiercely with my teeth. He flinched but stayed steady. I began pinching his nipples so tightly my fingertips turned white until he let out a yelp. I put my mouth on them and he thought he was getting reprieve but I took them between my front teeth and gnawed on them. This made him physically try to escape from my gasp but I bit harder as I grabbed his hair to keep him in place.

"Keep still!" I ordered him.

He went as rigid as a board.

I stood up and walked to get Bianca. I knew this was a time I wanted her at my side. He strained to see where I was but was unable to due to his secure position. Without warning I came up from behind him and smacked his bare bottom with the paddle. He said nothing. I increased speed and intensity quickly until you could hardly tell one smack from the next. He was breathing fast now and he hardly had time to catch his breath.

"This is what happens when you're dishonest with me," I spoke over the paddle.

"This is what happens to liars," I said as I switched to my dominant hand.

I spanked him hard. Harder than I had ever spanked him before. I looked at his face and his lips were pursed together tightly. He was taking all the pain I could give him.

I am the best thing that will ever happen to you.
SPANK!

I do not tolerate being lied to.
SPANK!

You don't deserve me or my feelings.
SPANK!

You will earn my forgiveness.
SPANK!

I took a break as my hand was stinging and his ass was reddening but I didn't stop torturing his body. The more I pinched, scratched, and bit him I whispered more personally affecting words to him. All of which I knew were hitting close to home emotionally.

"For three months you lied to me, three months! That's 90 days." I calculated verbally.

"Yes, Miss. I'm so--," he began to say.

"Bullshit! If you were sorry you wouldn't have done it. But now you'll be paying for it. You will take 90 spanks. Without whining, do you understand?" I asked.

"Yes Miss, I understand and I just wanted t--," he began speaking again.

"Shut up! I don't want to hear your excuses or ill-timed apologies right now. Just shut up and take what you deserve," I spat at him.

I pushed his head down. I didn't want him looking at me, he didn't deserve even that.

"Count them out," I commanded him.

I started at the level of firmness I had left off on and kept up the strength. He wasn't getting off easy. I had promised him (and myself) that much. With each slap his ass grew more and more red matching the scratch marks on his back. It looked a bit painful but I didn't care. I wanted him to feel pain and nothing else. He wasn't my boyfriend in that moment, he was the sub that was dishonest. He would see no leniency.

When he hit the 80s his body began to shake uncontrollably and he wasn't speaking as clearly as he was before. I didn't stop dishing out the pain. Harder and harder I hit him. He was rising slightly off the bench, trying to get out my reach but there was no where I couldn't reach him.

"And do 10 more just because," I said when we had reached 90.

I kept going without missing a beat (no pun intended) and as soon as I finished I saw why his body was shaking...

He was crying.

Full on tears streaming down his face. He was trying to muffle his cries but couldn't get himself together.

"I'm sorry Miss, I'm so sorry, I wish I had never lied. I don't deserve you. You are my everything and I ruined it. I'm so sorry...I'm so," he spoke between his cries.

I put Bianca down, pulled him off the bench and went to sit on the nearby couch. I covered him lightly with a blanket and held him in my arms. His hands still bound together, his head rested on my chest, his tears running down my breasts.

He just kept repeating how sorry he was.

"I'll never lie to you again Miss, I'll never hurt you again," he promised.

"I know you won't because next time I'm gone..." I said under my breath.

White lies lead to red asses Pt. 1

It started without thought and intensified very quickly. Within moments I was beating him bare-handed over and over, not fully in control of myself, until his ass reddened commanding him to apologize.

I imagine finding out that he had lied to me indiscriminately didn't help but add fuel to the fire but if the house was burning down, he was going with it.

It all started three weeks ago when I asked my boyfriend a very important question.

"Will you be my submissive in training?"

I rarely get nervous but I nearly forgot to breathe as the words fell from my lips.

Almost without hesitation he answered, "Yes".
 
This angered me.

This was an important question for me and he was answering as if I had just asked if he wanted a glass of wine. I expected some deliberation, some soul-searching thoughts, and most of all time to process what it meant.

I chided him and told him exactly that. He responded with mention that he already was submissive to me, so this couldn't be "that much different".

I needed him to understand what this meant to me. I spent time explaining myself, my fetishes, what I expected of my submissive, how much additional work this could entail, and most of all how it wouldn't always be fun for him.

I thought we were making progress, even if he looked a bit overwhelmed when I tried explaining the difference between a bottom, submissive, switch, and slave. But he hung in there and asked questions and generally seemed like he had an interests in certain aspects of the lifestyle himself.

Then I found out he had lied to me---had been for the past three months.

I wasn't as angry as I should've been at first, mainly because I caught him and I was absorbed in the satisfaction of my righteousness. But then it hit me. He LIED to me. Breaking the one relationship rule I had asked him not to at the start of things. It doesn't matter why he chose to seek other women's company outside of the relationship, all that matters is that he did and he lied about it. The fact that it never moved to any in-person meeting and physical interaction was the only silver lining but it didn't curb my anger.

Two days later we were slated to attend our first rope party together. It was a previous RSVP and as much as I wanted to back out he wanted to go. Perhaps he wanted to prove how open-minded he was but I think a lot of it was trying to gain my forgiveness.

I only agreed because I hadn't decided if he was worth my continued time or not and because I didn't want to back out at the last minute as I know that can be frustrating for party host.

I packed my play bag albeit non-enthusiastically but I packed it nonetheless. Rope, paddle, lube, clothespins, all ready to go.

I tried to mask my emotions during the party, play the good couple, introduce him to this side of my life with a smile but it was a struggle. Half way through the party we had made our way downstairs to the equipment. We hung out with others before branching off to be alone in the room with the spanking bench, bondage swing, and bondage table with a cage.

This is where I started to feel more like a Mistress and less like his hurt girlfriend.

"Take off your shirt and pants," I said as I reached into my bag for rope, "We need to talk."

Room Service

This was our first weekend away. Our first weekend in a hotel together. But when I saw her bag of tricks I knew that she had other things in mind besides relaxation. 

Something told me that this time was going to be vastly different. My hands were bound behind my back, as opposed to our previous encounter. Perhaps she felt that she was too liberal before. Whatever the case, there was an apparent lack of sensuality.

She asked if I remembered the rules as she blindfolded me but I must have answered too casually. Her tone suggested that she knew I was feeling all too comfortable and there was nothing gentle about the way she clamped my nipples. It was as if she were completely detached from me. As if I were nothing but her play-toy.

As her hands moved along my body, I could feel my mast quickly rising. I was expecting pleasure. I was sadly mistaken. 

"Did I give you permission to be hard?" She said. 

"No Ms." was my reply. 

She responded in a serious tone. "You're not allowed to be hard. Get soft right now." She began smacking my cock in the direction she wanted it to go.

I began to wonder why she tasked me with such a difficult feat. The pain was my pleasure. My arousal was the result. However, this wasn't about my pleasure. It was about hers. I wasn't losing my stiffness fast enough. 

"Didn't I tell you not to get hard?" 

Before I was even given a chance to respond, I felt the stinging pain of cold ice against my manhood. My underwear was now filled with more than a dozen ice cubes. As I concentrated on letting the cold take effect, she tortured my nipples some more.

Eventually she removed the ice, and my erection was no longer present. I breathed a sigh of relief. She must have heard me, because she quickly attacked my nipples once more. I felt teeth, nails, and other objects pinching them.The grunts, groans and moans began to escape me. Just when I thought I couldn't stand much more, she offered a glimmer of light. The clamps were removed. 

"Do you think I should be nice to your nipples?" She asked.

I answered too quickly. And very foolishly. "Yes Ms." 

The sternness of her retort sent chills down my spine. 

"Wrong answer. This is about what I want" 

She replaced the clamps in a manner that was anything but gentle and the intense sensation of pain returned.

She forced me on all fours and sat on my back for a few moments, using me as her personal chair. The weight of her was apparent but I didn't waiver, I stayed as sturdy as I could. I was then led to the floor by the rope she had conveniently tied around my cock when it was erect, and forced onto my back. It was very painful to lay on my hands, but somehow I think she was aware. In fact, she probably planned it this way. 

She left me alone for a few moments. I heard metal lightly clinking and then I could feel the stinging of the rolling blades as they traveled up my thigh. I tried to hold back my pain, but this was a mistake. She began to roll her device of torture in a more furious manner than our first encounter. My grunts of pain were becoming increasingly more difficult to restrain. I felt as if her goal was to watch me suffer. To drive across the point that pleasuring me was not her main goal.

Eventually I was brought back to my feet. She led me over towards the bed. Without even telling me what was going on, my mouth was directed towards her vagina. I began to give her oral pleasure, hoping that this is what she wanted. I was now afraid of the consequences if I chose wrong. Her response came in the form of pleasurable moans. I wielded my tongue in the most efficient way I could think of. I didn't want to consider what would happen if I didn't pleasure her to the best of my ability. Once she achieved a considerable amount of wetness, she pulled my head about. She imparted a few words unto me. Words that I would do well to remember from here on out. 

"This about what I want. You should be glad I even let you touch me" 

I felt like less than a human being. As if I didn't matter in her presence. Is this what it is truly like to be dominated?

Written by the bf

Edited for approval by: Mistress L

Wishlist Wednesday #3

It's been a while since I did Wishlist Wednesday. But I saw these items and just knew I had to share them!

Cry Baby Secret Bullet Vibrator

Want to have wireless fun? This seems like a fun little device to have when you want to secretly torture your submissive. Gives a whole new meaning to a "whining" and dining.

Fitted Leather Sheets

What could better than sleeping on a bed of leather? Helping a willing participate shed blood, sweat, and tears on a bed of leather! Easy clean-up and a sleek, sexy look. How can I resist?

Cat Lady Mask

I'm not usually one for masks but this one just spoke to me. Leather "tuffs" of fur would certainly help bring out the animal in me. Meow!

Wet behind the ears Pt. 2

His pupils dilated.

He never said how rough (or not rough) I could be. Instead all he had said was, "Use my body."

And I was doing just that.

I loosened my group from around his Adam's apple and pushed him to the ground with my pointed toes. He had removed my heels earlier in the mix, taking special care to kiss and rub them obediently.

I laid him down flat on his back, placing a pillow under his head. I gave him no warning as to what was coming as I placed my own aroused pussy on his face. I caught just a glimpse of his excited expression before I covered his mouth and face fully. I didn't have to direct or coach him in any way; I just ground on his willing and flexible tongue. I never lifted up to give him air. Instead I asked him from atop if he was okay and he would nod as much as he could between my curvaceous thighs.

I couldn't do this for long as it was putting me in an all too aroused head space. As much as I wanted pleasure I also wanted to be more hands on.

I lifted myself off and heard him catching his breath. It was good to know I had put him to work.

"May I have more Miss?" he asked pleading with his eyes.

"No, no more," I casually stated.

This is when I began kissing down his chest, leading to his long-held hard on. I told him to put his hands behind his head and he did so. His cock bounced in anticipation. I felt his tight balls; ready to explode. Lightly I took him into my mouth. He exhaled with a pleasing groan. I sucked on him for a minute, being sure each time I reached the head of his cock to flick it with my tongue. As he focused on my mouth I focused on the clothespin I had in hand.

Carefully yet quickly I placed one on the underside of his balls.

"This might pinch," I stopped and said just as I clipped it to him.

He hardly flinched.

I put another on behind it. He looked down almost surprised that the clothespin didn't hurt his delicate parts. I imagine that the adrenaline that surged thru him helped numb any pain.
I continued sucking on him bringing him closer and closer to the point of no return. He was getting ramped up, his breathing quickening with every lick.

*SNAP*
*SNAP*

I pulled the clothespin off without any warning. He jumped immediately but did not let a negative sound escape his throat.

"That wasn't too bad was it?" I asked looking up mischievously from between his legs.

"No Miss. It was fine," he replied.

I let his breathing return a bit to normal as I raked my nails up and down his body.

"Are you ready?" I asked pinning his body down with my own.

"For what Miss?" he asked but before he could finish he found out.

I placed my finger just around the edge of his ass and proceeded to lightly make my way in.

"Yes," was all he whispered.

I took his manhood in my mouth once more. The more I sucked the deeper I probed with my fingers. This was the deepest he had ever let me go inside him and he seemed to be enjoying it. I kept thrusting my fingers in and out of him listening to him make sounds I had never heard before.

I could literally feel his cock throbbing inside my mouth and under my fingers as I gripped it tightly. I bit down on his head my teeth sinking in slightly.

"Do not come in my mouth. Do you understand?" I asked assertively.

"Yes Miss no," he replied quickly.

"Yes you will come?" I asked knowing that's not what he had meant.

I stroked harder and faster as he struggled to compose his words carefully. He closed his eyes as he spoke, as if to block out the image of me with one hand wrapped around his cock and the other inside his ass.

"I meant I understood Miss. I will not come in your mouth unless you tell me to," he said perfectly.

"Good boy."

This is when I kicked it into high gear. I simultaneously switched between sucking, licking, and biting his cock. Then scratching up his thighs, biting his nipples, and taking his balls between my teeth, all the while still fucking his now loose ass.

He struggled to control himself, his body betraying him. I could see it on his face.

"Please Miss! Please, I'm going to come," he begged.

"No you're not because I didn't say you could," I responded.

"Yes Miss. I don't want to come."

He started to say this like a mantra, 'I don't want to come, I don't want to come'. He was trying everything to will his penis to not do what it so desperately wanted to do.

I removed my fingers and he sighed a bit relieved he could compose himself some.

I stood up towering over him, "Go and get cleaned up."

He looked confused.

"I would like to come Miss," he said in his most innocent voice.

"People in Hell want ice water. You've been a good boy. Now do as I say," I told him.

"Yes Miss, anything you want."

I simply love it when a boy does what he is told. Nothing more, nothing less.

Wet behind the ears Pt. 1

He had agreed to this.
To give me his body.
Granting me full control to use it how I saw fit.

He wasn't a submissive but he had what I'd call "submissive tendencies". Our relationship thus far had proved that much. Now it was time to see exactly how much he trusted me with his body.

I allowed him to enter the room. I was dressed in heels, a short skirt, an open breasted corset, and had tied my hair up in a bun. I wore my black rimmed glasses to complete the in-charge look. It seemed to have the desired effect because when he entered he looked me over with wide eyes and slight fear.

I made him strip immediately and then ordered him to kneel. We had established a ridiculous sounding yet necessary safeword; though he protested he trusted me enough not to need one.

"From this point forward you will not use my name. You will only refer to me as Miss. Do you understand?" I asked him as I towered over him.

"Yes," he responded.

I slapped his back with the paddle I held in my hand. He jumped unexpectedly.

"When I ask you a question you are to answer accordingly. Understand?" I looked him directly in his eyes and asked.

"Yes, Miss," he responded perfectly.

"Good, now let's begin."

I restrained his hands using a simple but effective basic wrap knot. He didn't resist or tense up as I carefully used the extra rope to wrap around his waist, this could have been because I practiced this knot on him the previous day. I stroked his manhood a little as I finished up with rope.

I couldn't help but notice my own excitement as my stiff nipples brushed against his body as I circled him. I had been looking forward to using him all week with no real plan in mind. I just wanted to do what came naturally--my dominace seems to flourish best this way.

He seemed nervous...his thin frame shaking a bit under the anticipation. I handed him a small glass.

"Here, drink this," I said glass in hand.

"What is it?" he asked quizically.

I shot him a stern look and he quickly opened his mouth willingly as I poured the hot shot of tequila down his throat. I kissed him hard on the lips enjoying the residual taste of liquor.

"Now relax," I ordered.

"Yes, Miss."

At this point I blindfolded him. Mainly because I didn't want him to see what was coming but also because I wanted to focus on the task literally at hand. I took an ice cube from the glass I had brought it before he arrived in the room. I held it between my lace-gloved fingers and pressed it onto his chest. His breath caught in his throat. I contiuned rubbing it all along his body, trailing it from the top to the bottom and from front to back. It was a large ice cube and wasn't melting as fast as I wanted. I turned him around and began rubbing the cube on his ass cheeks. They tensed up until I gave them a light pat. I ran the cube under his balls from behind him, along his taint and back up his crack. He seemed to enjoy this. The ice cube was melting more and it gave me an idea.

"I'm puttig the ice cube here," I said spreading his cheeks with my hand.

"I want you to hold it here until it melts. Understand?" I asked.

"Yes, Miss," he replied effortlessly.

I placed the cube there and he clenched as hard as he could to keep it from slipping out. All the while I licked his body in the places the cube had been until he had water running down his legs.

It had been nearly 20 minutes of torture now.

"I have a propsition for you. You may come now by use of my mouth but you must lick up your mess from my hands. Would you like to do that?" I teased.

He thought for a few moments.

"No, Miss. I want to give you more," he said.

I was pleased but only said, "Very well."

I turned him away from me, took Bianca in my hand and began spanking him. He doesn't have much of a bottom so I aimed carefully and made sure to make my spanks count. He only jumped a little at first but then seemed to remain more steady when I moved onto flogging him. An outsider would have never guessed this was his first time receiving these sorts of this stimulation as he held a perfect stance. Occasionally I would reach down between his legs surprised to find his cock still as hard as when we started.

"Is this too hard?" I would periodically ask him in between switching instruments.

He would moan and say, "No, Miss."

I decided to push him a bit further. I had him bend over and grab his ankles. I slapped him bare handed and heard the shock of it as he sucked in his breath. Again. Again. Again. Each time he sounded like he was surprised by the force I was capable of using. I began biting up and down the back of his thighs, knowing how sensitive his skin gets when aroused. This sent him into a roar of moans. I bit harder and he moaned louder.

I removed his blindfold, stood up, and paced around him. I grabbed a fistful of his hair bringing his face to mine. Then I took his lips between my own. I bit down. He yelped but did not say stop, so I did not. At this very moment I remembered that I had a small stash of clothespins available at my disposal. I reached for them and placed two on his nipples. He licked his lips. I slid slowly down on my knees and slipped his cock in my mouth. He felt warm and hard.

While doing this I took two more clothespins and placed them carefully under his balls. He whimpered softly and louder when I squeezed them but he did not move.

I faced him and kissed his lips before licking an outline of them.

It had been an hour now.

"I have another proposition for you," I said pausing to see if he would interrupt me with anticipation but he waited patiently.

"You may come now if you like but you must do so yourself. Masturbate to orgasm and I will watch but won't help. Would you like that?" I asked him in his ear.

He shook his head left to right. "No, Miss. I can wait," he whispered back.

"This is my last offer, after this you will come how I want or not at all. Do you understand?" I whispered.

He nodded slowly. "Yes, Miss," was his only reply.

I wrapped my hands around his throat tightly, cutting off a small supply of his air.

"Fine. Have it your way," I warned him with a wink.

Welcome to the dollhouse

He was pressing his fingers up against my clit and it was all I could do not to cry out in pleasure. He traced it with his two fingers causing me to become increasingly more wet with each stroke.

"Get on top of me," he whispered in my ear. 

I was tired and not feeling like particularly taking charge.

"Is that what Mister wants?" I asked softly.

He paused, I'm sure trying to figure out if that's what he had heard.

"What did you say?" He now asked turning his naked body slightly toward my half naked body.

"Your Plaything asked if Mister desired it to get on top of him," I responded pitching my voice a bit higher than usual.

"My Plaything?" He repeated. He was confused or shocked by what I had said but either way I could see the corners of his mouth turning up into a smile...even in the dark.

"I am your Plaything. I am here for your enjoyment. I only want to give you pleasure," I said these words with such conviction.

His breath quickened and he asked, "You're mine?"

"Yes Mister. I am yours to do with as you please," I replied.

He curled up next to me laying his head on the exposed flesh peeking from the top of my bra. I didn't move.

"Why are you so stiff...you don't want to lay with me?" He asked in regards to my obviously rigid body posture after a few moments.

"I am sorry Mister. You did not say you wanted your Plaything to lie with you, is that what you would like?" I asked feigning confusion of human emotion.   

"Yes, I want my Plaything to lie with me," was all he said.

We cuddled together like this for little while until he got up on his knees and moved to be slightly between my legs.

I had made sure to not move unless he moved me. I let my limbs hang limp until he placed them wherever he wanted them and he was now putting my legs on his shoulders as he removed my panties.

"Does my Plaything want me to go down her?" He asked a slight gleam in his eyes.

"Your Plaything wants to do whatever will make Mister happy," I said slowly.

He wasted no time diving between my legs his tongue now where his fingers previously were drawing small figure eights inside me. He was awfully good with his tongue but I didn't want to come out of character with my moans so I only squirmed a little bit until he came up for air and resumed lying beside me.

"Touch my cock," he told me in his first command.

I placed my hand on his cock. Being sure not to do anything more.

"Is this what Mister wants?" I asked him.

"No. Stroke Mister's cock," he ordered.

"Your Plaything does not understand what Mister means. How would Mister like his cock stroked?" I responded.

He took my hand in his and closed it around his cock. He was hard. Rock hard. He began moving my hand up and down his shaft in long stokes.

"Is this what Mister likes?"

He groaned in response.

"Now I want my Plaything to get on top of me," he said after I had stroked him to maximum hardness.

I did exactly as he said, climbing onto his hard cock and then I sat there motionless.

"Does my Plaything not know what riding me is?" He asked laughing slightly.

"No Mister. Your Plaything is not sure what you mean exactly."

He placed his hands on my hands and guided me back and forth on his cock, the rhythm causing me to get even wetter. He thrust his hips into mine and pulled me down harder and moaned.

"Does my Plaything like this?" He asked mid-stroke.

"Your Plaything likes whatever Mister likes. Would you like to your Plaything to moan for you? I have 14 pre-set audios programmed, which would you like?" I asked.

He thought for a moment, his manhood twitching inside of me.

"Shuffle please," he said calmly not missing a beat.

I cursed myself inside for saying I was programmed with 14 different moans but couldn't help from feeling extra sexy as I began moaning.

I cycled thru, throwing in a high pitch squeal, a sensual moan, a guttural groan, a low growl, and a badly imitated porn moan.

"Go back," he said in the middle of me moaning.

I back tracked in my performance to the sensual, most natural moan, until he stopped me.

"Yes, that one. Mister likes that one," he said as he closed his eyes and fucked me deeper.

"Is your Plaything pleasing you?" I asked already knowing the answering.

He was speechless until he bucked his hips lifting me off him completely.

"What is wrong Mister?"

"My Plaything was about to be filled with Mister's come. I didn't want to get you messy."

I guess I had gotten my answer.

I laughed and told him, "Anytime you want to play with your Plaything all you have to do is ask."

Are you a good witch or a bad witch?

"Oooohh ahhh" 

The moans escaped his throat in a ragged jumble of sounds.

I watched him arch his back in the air, lifting his thin frame above the mattress as my nails dug deeper into his flesh, the white tips of them disappearing into his stomach.

We had been like this for what seemed like a heavenly amount of time but in actuality was only a few minutes. I had no idea he would like the things I was doing to him but his body responded as if it couldn't get enough.

I placed my mouth next to his navel, licking a circle around it and then blew a huff of cool air in the same motion.

His breath caught in his throat as he struggled to breathe calmly. I began licking in larger circles covering his whole chest, working my tongue up his neck around his Adam's apple, under his chin, until I had covered his mouth with my own. All the air he released I took into myself and swallowed down my throat, the hotness sending shivers down my spine.

This time a moan escaped my own mouth. I couldn't hold it in, I didn't even try. Dragging my nails along his thighs up to his manhood and feeling his hardness, heavy in my hand spurred me to want to scratch his skin deeper. It made me want to turn my licking into quick nibbles and grab a handful of his usually tame but now wild mane in my free hand---all of which I did.

He hissed with his eyes closed, head digging into the pillow at the introduction of my teeth clamped around his left nipple, and it almost sounded like he said "More" and so that is what I gave him...

More of my breath
More of my hands around his throat
More of my breasts sweating on his chest....

More of Mistress L

Give em' the finger

Some guys like a finger in the ass...some don't.

I've learned over the years never and I mean NEVER assume...it makes an ass...well never mind that pun is too easy.

But seriously, sometimes girls want to put things (mostly a finger or three) in a guy's ass.

Is it just me or are men generally much more uptight (again no pun intended haha) about putting things in their asses? Currently neither of my beaus are into this, that's fair, to each their own. However their logic falls short for me. Did I mention they thoroughly enjoy giving me anal and have no problem being on the other end? That seems like a double standard. And beyond any of that...they won't even TRY it before they decide they don't like it.

NEWSFLASH: A finger in the ass does not make you gay. Okay guys? Or bi, or any other number of ridiculous ideas you've made up in your mind. If someone has told you this or you have gotten this impression from media, then just put it aside. Sexual pleasure is not a plausible marker for determining homosexuality---if so, we'd all be gay!

At worst it makes you experimental. At best it means you know what you like and aren't afraid to enjoy yourself in the bedroom.

I am a whole-hearted advocate for trying everything at least once, yes even this. The science behind it all makes it too hard to argue against. There are a cluster of nerve endings in your anus that make stimulation to this area feel extremely pleasurable (I know from continued experience). Orgasms can even be heightened with a little back door play if timed right. Best of all there's no special toys or lube needed. Just a little finger play and you could be "ooh" and "ahh"ing more than you imagined. Just remember to clean your hands before and after for safety and tell your partner to also be as sanitary as possible before play.

Heterosexual assplay should be a fun experience. That's it really. A finger in the ass shouldn't be a pain in the ass. Don't over think it, just enjoy yourself.

And lighten up men, give it a try. Leave your inhibitions at the bedroom door not your back door...your significant other just might thank you.

Marvelous multiples

I always seem to find the perfect guy...when I'm already in a relationship.

Being the good person that I am I don't cheat. No. I've never cheated. I've been cheated on but have never cheated. Instead I resort to the agonizing internal self-infliction---the "What if" game.

What if I were single?
What if I got drunk and happened to kiss him?
What if we just had phone sex?
What if....

Yes, we've all played that game at one point or another.

But it really is painful and unhealthy.

That's why in 2004 I decided to never play the "What if" game ever again. I decided to become polyamourous and I haven't regretted it....mostly.

It was a lot harder than just the decision to do so. I've touched on my relationship status before but over the years my conceptual ideals have shifted and moved and replaced other ideas I previously held.

I was taking this well beyond the whole "we can see other people" thing; the general casual types of relationships before getting serious. I genuinely wanted to make meaningful romantic connections with more than one person at a time and have the consent of everyone involved.

I thought I was making it easy...what guy isn't going to like the idea of being a "part-time" boyfriend? I thought wrong.

The first attempt at poly was an epic fail. Communication was all but non-existent and we ended up hurting each other in the process of finding our way in new and unfamiliar territory.

My next attempt involved too much communication, which I never believed was possible. Not until I listened to the most descriptive and raunchy tales of my boyfriend's sexual interludes with his other girlfriend. It was definitely T.M.I. and a more than subtle breaking point for me.

My third attempt (which I thought was a charm at the time) turned into an unwanted game of mind fuckery and cheating...yes cheating within a poly relationship can happen. It seemed ridiculous to me. Why sneak around when you need only ask/be open and honest?

I nearly threw in the towel until I met a sub who wanted to date and serve me. He seemed okay with the poly aspect at first but it quickly became apparent that it wasn't for him, or us. Trust issues and jealousy consumed us and what was left of our tattered relationship.

Sometimes I have thought that it would be easier to not have come out as poly, to just have settled but I know I would be a different and more unhappy person for it.

My bf (bless him) has really endured and expanded his mind a lot on my behalf. I'm his first and only poly relationship. My seeing of submissives or even casual dating hasn't caused any problems we can't talk out. And we try to remain open on all fronts.

Now I've met someone new. Someone who has tumbled in and out of my life for a few years but never stuck due to timing. He's quickly starting to become important to me and I know this will also be his first poly endeavor. I don't want to scare him but I do want to be honest with him. I am trying to outline the struggles we might encounter, the questions he might have, issues we might have overlooked...but I know it's never enough. I know life has its own plans and curve balls to throw at us.

With him, much to my surprise, it feels different. I feel different. It's the first time I have asked myself, What if I wanted to be with both him and my boyfriend on a more serious level?

Which lead me read more on the subject of "polyandry". This is essentially the opposite of polygamy---it is when a woman takes on more than one husband. I've come to conclude that I would be very open to participating in this type of arrangement. To me, this almost seems like female domination at its core, even without the BDSM play. I would be Queen of my castle, wanting for hardly much between the two them, save for a little kinky play with a submissive play-mate every so often.

And so it seems we are giving it a trial run this summer as the new bf will be staying with us on and off, sharing our living arrangements for a few months.

So far all I can say is pleasing two men is definitely going to keep me on my sexual toes...a challenge I readily accept!