My electric mist

Uninspired and a tad fed up, that's how I've been feeling lately.

Some readers have inquired to what happened to some of the subs I've mentioned last year.

sweet sub all but disappeared from the map. He had some personal issues he was attending to and I haven't really heard anything from him since.

Mr. Speedos was just a fad apparently, gone almost as fast as he arrived.

quiet sub and I haven't really been chatting as he travels often. We haven't even discussed the idea of picking up play in the future.

The Congressman hasn't tried to contact me since our last encounter. Perhaps he was frightened off.

nurse sub (bless his heart) often contacts me to meet. Our schedules and life happenings haven't been kind so we haven't seen each other in a few months.

Of the fourteen potentials I was communicating with none...yes ZERO of them worked out.

Try as I might, I am discouraged. I feel like the kid who is left out of the shenanigans because I am not "big enough" yet. I love BDSM. When I try to fight the feeling, it rears up inside of me and can't be contained. I don't want a life (right now at least) that doesn't involve BDSM in some form but my success (or lack thereof) seems too prevalent for me.

I've heard from other Dommes that:

I'm too picky
I need to look at the "bigger picture"
I should realize just because I'm young doesn't guarnetee me a young sub
I need to get over myself
and other sage "advice" I'd dare not repeat just due to the audacitiy of it.

I don't know what the problem is (subs, the location, or even myself) but I hope that I'm able to work thru it.

It's a struggle sometimes and even though some Dommes make it look easy, we have to squeeze a lot of frogs before we find that prince who says "Thank you, Mistress harder."

A hard day's night

I've had an interesting past couple of weeks. I've been really trying to get out and meet some new people, subs, switches, CDs, even some Doms.

I decided to send a cutesy CD I've admired online a message, just asking if she'd like to have drinks sometime. To my surprise she agreed to almost immediately. We decided on a local bar but she got lost on the way and I used my super GPS skills to guide her to where I was. We just happened to be near a secluded pasture that has a water park attached. Of course since it was late at night it was closed but that didn't stop us from hopping the fence and enjoying a little after-hours fun in the park. We rode all the slides and even got in the wading area of the pool. It was not what I had expected of the night but was fun all the same.

A little later in the week I met up with a young yet ambitious switch who happens to be a nurse. Nurse sub met up at the bookstore where I was having a discussion with some friends. He was very friendly and pretty normal (which is always a relief). We had almost gotten thru the night with us just chatting as friends when I jokingly chided him for wearing the same color as me. He played along and apologized promising next time to ask for permission to match. My stomach did a little flip flop with excitement. A few days later we went out for dinner together and he was just as friendly. I think he's a nice person but worry how about how much time he has to devote to a demanding Miss such as myself, as he is a bit of a workaholic.

I had a mid-week dinner planned with a sub who sounded spot-on. But, he was promising me the moon and the stars and we'd only been talking for a few weeks online and had yet to meet face to face. I'm a firm believer that it's easy to be anyone you want online, the true test is how you're able to transcend that into reality when you meet someone. But something didn't sit quite right with me about him, so I was anxious to meet him and see for myself what he was like and what do you know...he stood me up! Yes, even a I get stood up. I tried to give him a second chance (even though I was livid) but he basically ignored me. I can only chuckle when I think that it his lost, not mine. This was definitely a case of it sounds too good to be true, it probably is.

Sweet sub heard about me being stood up and offered to hang out with me the following night. I think he was trying cheer me up, which he did. I finally invited him over (for the first time) and he modeled some underwear he had for me. Yes ladies and gents, it's only taken nearly 2 years but I finally got to see him in his undies. He really does have a nice ass for showing off panties. When we met up for drinks last night he expressed to me that he'd be interested in forced oral on another male. While I'm usually not really that into two guys (there's no room for me there!), the thought of his adorable mouth wrapped around a hard cock definitely got me thinking. The more I learn about sweet sub the more I like. It doesn't hurt that he has such a innocent look to him but I know all the naughty things he wants to do!

Now I'm off to New York for a week to see what kind of trouble I can get into in the Big Apple. 

Don't worry I'm the Captain of a motorboat

Earlier this week I attended a local BDSM club meeting with the sweet sub. Last minute plans entailed my inviting a close friend of mine as well and we were off.

Upon arriving, the sweet sub was as handsome as usual and dressed as a mild mannered frat boy (how can someone look so innocent but be so naughty?). We settled in as best we could in the tightly packed large group and began making the most of the happy hour.

We were "lucky" enough to sit by two older ladies who were polite enough to my friend and I. But, when given the opportunity to chat up the sweet sub, they went in for the kill! I've never seen cougars up close and personal but it was amusing at best. I made a few exchanges of phone numbers and email as well but was excited to know that many people assumed the sweet sub was mine. It may have been my "Don't fuck with me" look and whomever was within proximity of me it engulfed so they thought, "we better not fuck with him either" haha. But we made sure to tell people that we weren't together. He was free to roam and be mauled and pawed by all cougars alike.

If it sounds like I'm a bit jealous, I'm not, if anything I'm only jealous that he showed them his pink panties and I've yet to get a in-person show. It doesn't help that out of the men who gave me their numbers/emails, one was definitely NOT my type (think homeless chic), one was just too young (18 to be exact and he smokes and chews tobacco!), one was married but assured me his wife wouldn't mind him kneeling for me (uh huh...riiight), and one proclaimed if I ever needed a good motor-boating he would be free.

I can't help but giggle at the thought of me ever being so desperate I'd call that gentleman for a good motorboat session.

Ahh, men and their silly dreams.

A collection of sorts

Last weekend seemed to be all about shopping and buying fun toys!

And on Sunday I met up with the sweet sub I talked about last entry but this time we met up at the mall to do some panty shopping. I've never been one for sissifying my sub but somehow the thought of this broad-shouldered beau in a pair of pink, tight panties really stirs something within me! As we riffled thru the store's baskets of clearance panties I was excited to watch him pick out underwear. It was an interesting insight into guys who wear these types of things. I teased him that he picked out more girly undies than I would've worn! But I guess if you're going wear women's clothing why not go all the way. The funniest thing to me was when we were checking out the cashier just assumed that the underwear was for me as she handed me the receipt even though he had paid...if only she knew!

He was gentleman throughout our shopping spree as we whisked from store to store where he ended up buying a cute french maid outfit but did not find anything worthy at the adult store.

All the shopping made me think of the things I already own that have made it throughout all my moves with me.  I have two toy boxes and this is mainly the "kinky" items not specifically BDSM related but still fun. So for curious minds, here are this Mistress' toys!

*Pictured from left to right: a Massage For Dummies mini book, KY His & Her Oils, Astroglide, Pasties, Cock rings, Edible body dust, Warming lubricant, Altoids, Sex dice, a Wireless Cock Ring, Cock sleeves, a Blindfold, Wireless nipple clamps, Flavored lubes, and some Sex coupons

This next box is mostly BDSM based. It might be my favorite! *Pictured from left to right: a CB-6000, Velcro adjustable leg-spreader, a Feather tickler, a Whip with metal ball chain tassles, Cyberskin-like dildo, Clothespins, Bondage tape, a Chain leash, Handcuffs, a Magic bullet, my Tie-Dye dildo, a Collar & leash, sleek Black dildo, a Red riding crop, another Feather tickler with tassles on one end, a Whip, my leather Paddle, a Slave bracelet, a Ball gag with mask, a Blindfold, a Flesh colored dildo, Ribbons, and a Pair of lacy gloves

These are the toys of my trade save for my corsets, heels, and such. I can't wait till I find a good little boy to start using all my fun stuff with again!


*Click pictures for a larger view

Two kinksters walk into a bar...

A few nights ago I went out to have drinks with someone I've been exclusively talking to online for about a year.

I knew that if we didn't meet in the next couple of weeks we probably never would. So we decided kinda spur of the moment to meet up at a bar. I was there a little bit early waiting for him when not one but two separate guys asked to buy me a drink, which I politely refused.

When my Fetlife friend finally came up I was shocked to see such a cute guy. I give people the benefit of the doubt and assume that like most internet users everyone is putting their best...er..picture forward. Therefore I was pleased to learn that not only was he adorable but he was normal and he only stared at my breasts a couple of times (he was such a sweetie).

We chatted about a few random things but my mind couldn't help wandering off when there was silence what he'd look like on his knees looking up at me with those big blue/green eyes of his. With me issuing commands while pulling swiftly on the leash around his neck, giving him a much needed spank occasionally.

My extremely naughty mind felt guilty because he did seem like such an innocent boy. But admittedly that just turns me on more to know that I am corrupting someone! So while sweet sub talked about a basketball game that was on, I imagined wrapping a ball gag around his mouth. Tsk tsk.

Is this what women usually get angry at men for doing? Is this what one would call "objectifying"? If so I think he'd be okay with being the object of my lust for a few hours.